Sunday, January 15, 2012

Trimester Deux.

Now that I am just days away from delving into my sixth month of pregnancy, and fast approaching my third trimester, I figured I could share the experiences of my second trimester thus far.

I am finding that ever since finding out the gender three weeks ago, I am feeling a sense of urgency to get things ready for baby. I have to say... I feel SO MUCH BETTER! Not a hundred percent, my body is still working very hard to cook this little boy, and I have bad days still. Aside from a sick day here and there, I have lots of energy, a newly found appetite, and I feel much less weepy. Even though I feel great, I am noticing big changes in my body. I can no longer see under my belly, I am officially done with tummy sleeping, I wake much more often with little aches, and my favorite is that the kicks and movements are becoming stronger and more frequent. My least favorite part, is that I am really starting to feel heavier, and I am very aware of the strain on my hips and back now.

With my increasing size, and feeling of weight, I know that it's only a matter of time before I will be moving much slower, and feeling less well. That means it is work work work for me until I can't do it anymore. Just this past week I have washed and stored all of the baby clothes, blankets, and bedding so that it's ready when he comes. We also painted the nursery!
 New bedding all ready to keep my sweet boy comfy and warm.
 Our theme for the nursery is owls, and we are into soothing natural colors like blue and brown.
 We had a talented friend make a special name for him to match the nursery.
Still a work in progress, but it feels good to get something done.

It still feels like there is so much left to do. I have to take deep breaths quite often. Every time I look at my growing form, I realize that while it's still far away, it's going quickly and I get a little bit of anxiety. I'm scared to be a parent, and I want so desperately to be as prepared as I can. I know it's a big transition in life, and while I welcome it, I still strive for it to be as comfortable as possible.

With that aside, it's probably pretty clear that I like lists. So here is my list of Pros and Woes of the second trimester.

PROS
☺The little kicks and movements!!
☺The feeling of wellness.
☺I'm starting to look pregnant, and not just like I need to say no to Twinkies.
☺That frantic feeling that I need to get ready, I have motivation to clean!
☺My appetite is back!
☺It's so cute when Jordan talks to him.
☺We're almost there!

Now the woes are pretty much the downsides to all of the pros!
WOES
☻I love it when he moves, but for some reason he has made himself comfortable right on top of my bladder.
☻I feel SO HEAVY!
☻I still feel self conscious about my body, it just looks weird.
☻So much to do, and time is racing.
☻I WANT FOOD. What's that? Ham? Yes, please! Two helpings, and some potatoes, and gravy, and jello for dessert, then for a snack...
☻I have a terrible fear that he and my husband won't bond... I know I'm being stupid, I know without a doubt that Jordan loves him more than anything, I worry about everything.
☻We're almost there... AHHH!

I also wanted to share some funny things I hear, or feel, or have experienced.

One of my favorite things that I have heard this trimester is "Wow, you're carrying high!" I agree it appears that I am carrying high, little does everyone know that he still thinks he's nine weeks old, and hangs out in my pelvis. The illusion that I'm carrying high comes from the fact that I'm a midget with a 4 inch torso... There is no where else from my uterus to go! It is stretching from right below my boobs all the way to my pelvis, and shoving all of my insides into my ribs, but my son is chilling AT THE VERY FREAKING BOTTOM!!

I also have to laugh how everyone, and I seriously mean everyone, asks me how I'm feeling. Most of the time it's veteran moms, and I'm pretty positive they know how I'm feeling. I always like to answer the question because following is usually an awesome or hilarious story from the mother about her horrendous sickness, or hemorrhoids, or something that makes me feel better about sleeping in until 11 the day before yesterday.

Lastly, I find it funny how I can already tell that he is a lot like his father. He gets fidgety during church, and reacts to music. My favorite is when he sort of just... stretches out and pushes against me. I can feel this weird pressure at several different angles like he just needs more room and he's going about getting it. The funny thing is, Jordan does that every night in bed. I guess we are going to need a bigger bed when he gets older and spends the occasional night with us...